I am an archaeologist excavating for courage buried within me;
Firelit Requiem for Our Silent Monsters: Confronting Invisible Terrors Together

There is an unspoken agreement—you do not mention my fear, I will ignore yours
I tell myself, fear is a room. It has no windows or doors,
only walls that breathe and pulse around me.
You are the light in my hands; I use it to paint shadows
on these trembling surfaces.
Fear whispers through every crevice of this chamber,
a language we both understand but dare not speak.
We tiptoe on its edges with tender smiles and furtive glances—
our dance so fragile, as if stepping too hard would shatter us all at once.
I am an archaeologist excavating for courage buried within me;
And you—a cartographer charting constellations across your heart’s terrain;
In our silence lies complicity: don’t ask about the monsters lurking beneath bedsheets,
lest they crawl out from under yours as well. We keep secrets tucked away like prayers:
please let them stay hidden forever—or until someone else dares question first their existence aloud here;
But sometimes even quietude cannot quench curiosity’s thirst
And so, dear friend, may we break the silence and face our fears,
For together in this darkness lies a beacon of hope—
A shared light that conquers shadows; reclaims hearts;
And turns these quivering walls into vast, limitless horizons.
It is time to break the silence. My life has changed forever and my addiction has been forever changing. Yes I sometimes have an itch for it, but nonetheless it’s over now and it’s permanent. People like you have made me realize how bad my anxiety can get. I cry often because I can’t help the people that need help. I think I’ll write about how dreadful drugs can make people sick and mentally exhausted. I promise you and myself we won’t regret this decision. 39 years ago I was diagnosed as having severe depression and my anxiety level has dropped dramatically. Your advice is appreciated. Blue is my favorite color and the colors match well. Thank goodness for your help and your prayers. I’m not going anywhere near drinking alcohol or drugs again.